Yesterday was hard, the build up of a full year gone by without him. I can no longer say, "last year, at this time, he was alive".
A year ago today he was born, but already gone in the wee hours of the night.
Last night, when I came home from work, Daniel I quietly sat on the couch and cried. We watched the snow fall, and cried.
The snow is still falling today.
We have no plans to be anywhere, see anyone, or do anything. We will be together and we will miss our son. Like everyday...but today especially as we know this is the day that forever changed our lives.
I am honoured to say he is my son. I feel privileged I was able to carry him for 9 months, and give birth to his beautiful body. I wouldn't change a thing about him. I just wish he could have lived. I ache for him to be here. Today. Every day.
We are in love with him still. Always and Forever.